MAN!!!! I feel like such a stupid little kid!!!! I'm like jelouse and angry and all that other stupid stuff and I don't even have a valid reason!!! That fact alone is enough to get me boiling. I mean usually I don't care and I just let it go without much fuss so this kind of gets to me. Okay I must sound like a rambling idiot by now and frankly I FEEL LIKE ONE.

My brother joined Gaia recently and well he's like on it all the time. I mean he's ALWAYS bugging me to get off the computer and stuff and it drives me nuts. It's to the point where I want to strangle him. I mean I don't know why but something about my brother just annoys me. I don't know what it is and I know it's really bad because I'm his sister and all but REALLY!!! I only have to see hjim and aI just get that kind of pissed off feeling. If it was someone at school I would just avoid that person but it's my BROTHER and I have to actually live with him.

So when I'm on the internet doing minutes (because I'm the secretary for this group thing) sometimes I go on to check what's going on at Gaia or some other sites and he'll just kind of come up behind me all smug like and be "wheren't you going to do your minutes?" I mean it's bad enough that whenever I see him I get mad for no reason but when he acts all superior like that I could just strangle him. But then my parents would be all "you should know better because you are older" and "he was just reminding you" and it kills me. I mean I was raised so that it's like impossible for me to do all the stuff I SHOULD be able to do like beat on my little brother when he deserves it and it SUCKS!!! I mean I could just sock him and he would totally deserve it but I wouldn't because I'm too damn moral. And ity's not like he couldn't take it because he may be 3 years younger than me but he's taller than me and I know he can take a hit but then he'd be a sissy and tell my parents and I'D be the one to take tha fall.

That's not all, he is also talking with my best friend. Okay here's where the childish foolish stupid stuff comes in so if you are going to diss me or anything on it then just skip it because I feel bad enough as it is for being this childish. So my brother's talking with my best friend on Gaia and I don't know why it get to me as much as it does but it REALLY does. I can't make it stop either. I mean it feels like he;s muscling in on my territory, like he's pushing his way into my world. And here's the truth of it I DON'T WANT HIM THERE!!!! Not his name not his face nothing. I can't help it but the only way I know to not get constantly mad at him is to avoid him. So at first he was in my room all the time and I would yell at him to get out but that didn't work and my parents got on my case about that. So I went and talked to my friends on the phone which was good for a while but then he starts listening in on my conversations and I had to find something new. Then I went to the internet and joined some sites and that helped. I got to chat with friends and he was nowhere in sight. Then he joins and it bugs me a bit because he cuts into my internet time but I try to be civilized about it and don't mention it. I let it go. Then he starts commenting on my profile and he "looks in on me" when I'm chatting with my friends and he COMMENTS about my chats on my PUBLIC profile!!!!!!!!! I TRIED avoiding him and I tried to be civilized and I would have just ignored him if he stayed out of my way but NOOOOOOOOO he has to get all in my face about it!!!! And now he's going and kicking me off the computer to talk with MY friends!

Do you know how that can make a person feel? I mean I don't have anything against my friend. I totally trust her because I know her and that's not really the point anyway. The point is I knew how I reacted badly to him so I stayed away but HE has to come prancing into my world where I DON'T WANT HIM!!!!!!!!!!

I feel childish for being jelouse of him talking to my friends. I feel stupid for letting it get to me. I feel mad because he got to stay home because he was tired from staying up all night on the internet. I'm just so mad right now I don't know what to do.

I know exactly how you feel, I have 3 little brothers, one of which is your brother's age. It sucks that he is doing that to you, you should have a choice in what you make your own and what he can't touch. He's just trying to get under your skin. It's hard, but try to ignore him, block him on Gaia and try to get your parents on your side.